my income tax came in. actually, my state income tax came in, even before the federal, so i'm a wee bit confused about that- but no matter, i got money! and as all reasonable and rational people do, i decided that i would save it. nest eggs are good!
and then i spent it.
well, actually, i didn't spend all of it. i didn't even spend half, but i still feel guilty about it, seeing as i've been cut a day at work, and money's a bit tight. ya know how i was making fun of my friend with all the yarn? (whom i totally adore, by the way. she gave me goodbye yarn. obviously she knows the way to my heart. yarn, and three musketeers bars. i will love her forever.) well, ummm..... i spent my money on yarn too. i walked into the yarn shop with sixty dollars. anybody who knows a lot about yarn can tell you that sixty bucks really isn't a lot of money to spend on yarn, and i don't have a credit card. i thought "hey, i'm going to limit myself. i can only spend the money that i have in my wallet. this is good." nope. there was a gas station with an atm within walking distance. and guess who walked her happy butt over there to use it? *points with thumbs* this kid.
it was the sock yarn that did it. oh, they have sock yarn. (i have never been to this shop, by the way. it was a new shop for me, and i think that may have been part of the problem.) i got three skeins of it, and blew my sixty bucks right there. but man, this sock yarn..... well, you don't even know. let's just say that i have a weakness for anything acid green and leave it at that. but three new pairs of socks, in really cool patterns? well, that's at least a month of knitting fun right there. i paid the man, and he went into the back to wind my yarn for me (i might add here- a dude working in a yarn shop? totally hot. he was straight too. sixty, with grandkids, but straight. i love that. and the fact that i thought it hot- quite bothersome.) and i felt quite proud of myself. but then i wandered over to the knitting notions and saw.....
sock keepers. yup. i have been coveting them with all the covetousness of my heart for just about ever. and then i hopped myself over to the atm. i bought three. i never have this many socks in progress. three?? what the hell, me. sigh. and i got needles too. ya know. so i can make more socks. to justify the sock keepers. eiii.
so there it is. i can't tease my friend any more again ever. please don't tell my husband?
Friday, February 10, 2012
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
ambition
ahhhh. finally. after too many months, i seem to be pulling myself out of the funk that i've been in. it's been since september, i think, that i really was completely happy and at ease, and i am truly thankful to return to even a shadow of my former happiness. i don't know whether it was the seasons changing (winter is always hard for me) or my relationship/ room mate issues chronicled in another post, but this winter was challenging. i'm hoping it's getting better. with the return of my positivity, i'm suddenly becoming professionally confident again.
today i did something that i never have done before. i applied for a job with a different district, in a different city. i have NO IDEA if i will even be considered for the job, but i meet all the criteria. it's not like it's far away- only a thirty minute drive from where i live now- but the fact that i'm even actively looking elsewhere is a huge step for me. quite the departure from the norm. of course i'm scared. but i keep telling myself that the worst thing that could happen is that they will tell me no. and how badly off would that leave me? exactly where i am right now. and really, that's not bad at all.
i keep wondering why this is something that is hard for me. after all, i just put in an application- it's not like i'm a shoe-in, or that they even know me. i don't have an interview. it was just the application. nothing more. i guess it's more symbolic for me- a sign that i don't have to be tied to the same city i grew up in, that i'm completely willing to branch out. (i'm trying to forget that most of my in-laws live there, and that i spent quite a lot of time there when my husband and i were dating. it's a new city, dang it.) and i want this. i want to do more. i'm professionally ready to do more. and with nine rejections in my district, i think that perhaps a change is in order. and i'm ready.
and i'm totally putting the cart before the horse. i know this. i can't let myself get too excited about anything, because at least for me, that makes the rejection so much worse. but.... but..... i'm excited. because i made that first step, and that's one of the best feelings i've had in a very long time.
in other news- i am knitting for me and loving it. i finished the first of a set of colorwork mittens (my first time doing colorwork, which knocks one of those new year's resolutions right off the list. one down, like nineteen million more to go) and it looks lovely. i'm really happy with how they seem to be turning out! i've also finished one of a pair of boot socks for me (are yall starting to sense a theme here?) and i love them as well. the yarn for the socks was a goodbye present from my library friend who retired (the one with all the yarn... remember her?) and it's a little sad to knit it, but the socks will be lovely. next up- stash enrichment. i used all my yarn at christmas. and with the income tax coming in...... ahhh, dreams. it'll be good.
today i did something that i never have done before. i applied for a job with a different district, in a different city. i have NO IDEA if i will even be considered for the job, but i meet all the criteria. it's not like it's far away- only a thirty minute drive from where i live now- but the fact that i'm even actively looking elsewhere is a huge step for me. quite the departure from the norm. of course i'm scared. but i keep telling myself that the worst thing that could happen is that they will tell me no. and how badly off would that leave me? exactly where i am right now. and really, that's not bad at all.
i keep wondering why this is something that is hard for me. after all, i just put in an application- it's not like i'm a shoe-in, or that they even know me. i don't have an interview. it was just the application. nothing more. i guess it's more symbolic for me- a sign that i don't have to be tied to the same city i grew up in, that i'm completely willing to branch out. (i'm trying to forget that most of my in-laws live there, and that i spent quite a lot of time there when my husband and i were dating. it's a new city, dang it.) and i want this. i want to do more. i'm professionally ready to do more. and with nine rejections in my district, i think that perhaps a change is in order. and i'm ready.
and i'm totally putting the cart before the horse. i know this. i can't let myself get too excited about anything, because at least for me, that makes the rejection so much worse. but.... but..... i'm excited. because i made that first step, and that's one of the best feelings i've had in a very long time.
in other news- i am knitting for me and loving it. i finished the first of a set of colorwork mittens (my first time doing colorwork, which knocks one of those new year's resolutions right off the list. one down, like nineteen million more to go) and it looks lovely. i'm really happy with how they seem to be turning out! i've also finished one of a pair of boot socks for me (are yall starting to sense a theme here?) and i love them as well. the yarn for the socks was a goodbye present from my library friend who retired (the one with all the yarn... remember her?) and it's a little sad to knit it, but the socks will be lovely. next up- stash enrichment. i used all my yarn at christmas. and with the income tax coming in...... ahhh, dreams. it'll be good.
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