rejection

remember when i told everybody about applying for the job in a different city?  well, i got an interview.  it went really well too, but i still didn't get the job.  why?  because, in a fluke move, somebody applied who had nineteen years of library experience and a master's degree.  i was second, as i have a paltry six years and a bachelor's.  i hate that.  i hate being told that i had an awesome interview.  i hate being told that there's nothing i should be doing to make myself more marketable- that i'm already doing it all.  i just can't hold a candle to nineteen years.

i'm not so dissapointed i could spit though.  i did speak with the community director for twenty minutes about the job, and she did say that they lady who got the job and i were the most qualified candidates by far, and that she really wants me to apply again.  she thinks my skills are good, and that i would be an asset to the district, and to keep looking for jobs down there.  i appreciate that.  so many times when i have interviewed, i've just gotten a curt "we picked somebody else" call or not even that much.  i always value the feedback, and i came away feeling like i was somebody they'd hire in the future.  she will see my name on her desk again.  as soon as a full-time position comes up. 

so is this rejection?  i don't really know.  i feel sad because i would have loved doing the work, and i want to branch out.  however, i'm coming away with a good taste in my mouth- something i haven't gotten from this job in the last five years.  i feel like i am wanted there.  i have never felt like that here.  that's good.  i'll keep on trying.

as for trying, i finished a couple of things.  i finished knitting socks out of my goodbye yarn from my friend, and they look lovely with my furry winter boots.  fuzzy boots plus wooly socks equals warm feet, which is good considering that the coldest wettest part of winter should soon be upon us- the time of year that other people call spring.  i also completed a hat for my nerd friend.  apparently she's currently obsessed with anything nathan fillion, and wanted jayne's hat from "firefly".  shockingly (or not, if you know any knitters) i was able to find at least ten patterns for it on ravelry, so i cobbled a bunch together and made my own.  it looks good.  i got a picture of it, and then promptly deleted it, so i need to get another one.  as soon as that happens, i'll post a pic or two.  i have a little shawl in the works, and am still trucking along on those mittens!  at least i'm staying busy.

ps- i'm a little obsessed with anything nathan fillion too.  he's just so dang cute.