sorry i have posted in a bit... life came up. it has a tendency to do that, and when that happens all i want to do is sit on my couch, wrap myself in afgans, watch british mysteries on tv, and knit stuff that isn't for other people. i didn't get to do that, sadly- i got to figure out how to make ramen and hot dogs a meal, while knitting american girl doll clothes for my smallest sister, and arguing via email with my old leasing agency for the remainder of my security depost. also i started world of warcraft back up. (which, if we're being honest, might be the actual reason i haven't posted. i must defend azeroth!)
it seems funny (in a "funny like i'm going to curl in a fetal position and cry in the corner" sort of way) that all my life crises manage to happen right about christmas time. why? why do i suddenly and very severely run completely out of money right before i need to go buy presents? why does the expected money never show up when you want it too? why did my mom ask me to go to midnight black friday shopping with her? (i am gonna regret that decision til the day i die.) i can't really put a finger on it, but these holiday problems don't just happen to me. i can count three or four friends who are going through a similar thing, and it's not because we're doing anything differently. it's, as my good pal put it, just the damn holidays. the time of year where your car breaks down, your computer quits working, your cat gets sick, and then YOU get sick... right in time to have to go be merry and make christmas cookies with your four younger siblings. (insert least favorite holiday activity here)
what's interesting is, i like christmas. i just dislike all the hype and expectation that goes along with it, which colors how i see all the winter crap that seems to coinside with the holiday. i hate to be a whiner, but dang it- making everything peppermint smelling doesn't mean that it still doesn't suck. until today, three people weren't getting christmas presents, because i rated having a place to live more important. (today my security deposit FINALLY came in the mail. thank you, baby jesus. now i can get presents AND groceries.) maybe i just feel more guilty about being cheap and poor this time of year. i dunno, but i am cranky.
ah well. today's plan: finish my day at work (three hours to go), maybe eat dinner with husband at a real restaurant, go to walmart, nurse cold that i am getting, knit very small sweater, find christmas spirit. hopefully not in that order, as walmart might knock all the cold fighting and christmas spirit right on out of me.
knitted present update: 1 cowl, 4 pairs socks finished. 1 pair socks nearly finished. 1 pair socks just started. dolly clothes- just a plan and a bad attitude.
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